Posted on November 8th, 2009 at 11:05 pm by Ann
I am no artist/poet. One sleepless night, these words just materialize inside my head… a bit cheesy… corny… but I was constantly thinking of you…
10/14/2009
Thinking of you…
Your name echoing inside my head…
When I sleep… You are all I dream about…
Your eyes… your smile…
You are all I can think about…
Your voice… your laugh…
I can’t hide it anymore… you are all I can think about…
It seemed ages… I thought I could never feel this way again…
I want to know you more…
Be with you more…
Laugh with you more…
Talk with you more…
I like you…
It’s difficult…
I should not like you…
I should not talk to you…
I should not laugh with you…
And I can’t be with you…
Reality bit me…
All I can do now… is think of you…
Think of us…
Dream of us…
I like you…
I wonder if you are thinking of me too… __r___
…
photo from deviant art
Posted on February 23rd, 2009 at 6:18 pm by Ann
You visited my dream last night. And it brought a feeling that has been sleeping ages ago. I want to see you, talk to you but I chose not to. If you want to talk, you could have called or texted, but neither, nothing, no effort from your side. Even snail mails nor e-mails. Nothing. I remembered then that we used to write to each other. Pieces of paper from our notebooks, passing notes, doodling. “I miss you†messages even though you’re just seated beside me. I still have them. Funny. Sweet. I felt then that I was in love with you, even though I don’t want to admit it. We were young then, naïve. Truthfully, I was not sure if what I was feeling then was real and yours towards me as well. I’ve made decisions and actions that brought hurt to you and I am sorry. But then you still understood and told me I was just confused. I felt weak then and guilty. How am I supposed to face you? How come you are willing to accept me despite the things that I have done? I don’t regret the things that had happened, because that experiences had made me who I am right now. And you know; you are one of those that mold me to what I am. And I thank you for that. You were my lover, my best friend, a brother, a father. And I’m glad to have had you in my life. And as I write this entry, I think of you and it made me smile. I don’t know where our relationship will take us but I’m hoping it will lead towards happiness.
Posted on January 22nd, 2009 at 3:17 pm by Ann
Yeps, I have cold and slight fever… again. I’ve been feeling heavy and sickly these past few days…
I need vitamins! Wahehe!
I have to get well or else i may end up jobless… the recession issue very much impacted our company and am, in a way, very troubled about it. *sigh* but still thankful …
I still managed to go to the office last wednesday afternoon, though very very late, but I think it got the worst out of me since I went home from office super late, like 1 am this morning… hay… a lot of work must be done and I’m here working from home/apartment… oh well I think it can’t be helped… I need to consult a professional; I’m always like this… feeling weak and fuzzy… *sigh* I’m feeling feeble every second lately… weird… I used to be active and stuff like that. *sigh*
Aside from this physical weakness, I’m having dilemma in the heart department as well. I think it accounted in my sluggish feeling lately… just a thought. Aw I’m so dim-witted. I don’t know what to do, what decision to make, I’m so not gifted when it comes to this department. I’m so not feeling well and happy about what is going on in my personal life. Wahaha! I’m so utterly pathetic really… oh well… that’s me
Posted on January 15th, 2009 at 7:04 pm by Ann
“Kung hindi man maging kame… sya pa din ang first love ko…”
Ahaha! Kaloka!
Posted on January 11th, 2009 at 8:29 pm by Ann
mode: darma/emote-emote/mellow
i’ve been listening to this song the whole day! *sigh* can’t decipher what i’m feeling right now…
but i know i’m not okay…
see here
hay… i’m so not lucky when it comes to relationships… romance… i hope my luck will change… i wish to be loved… i wish to be happy… i don’t want to say goodbye… you know i can’t… i’ll just hold on, on what we have right now and see where we’ll go… for now i am sure… i love you so dearly and i’m so sorry i let you go…
love, by far is the hardest and most complicated feeling… but the most wonderful… I don’t know how long I can take it… if I need to be miserable, I’ll accept it… as long as that’ll make you happy… they say, “if you love someone, let him/her go…â€, but I can’t… I’ll hold on to you as long as I can and as long as you want me to… if being miserable is the only way that we can stay connected… I’ll stay happily-miserable for you… I love you… I love you dearly…
Posted on October 27th, 2008 at 11:54 am by Ann
I had my medical checkup last Friday. It was “mandatory†though, but it was cool. I had to undergo x-ray and stuff plus the doctor who attended me was from LB too! B.S. Bio! Cool huh? 
Whenever I meet someone from elbi, it just brightens my day 
Speaking of “good moodâ€, my Edward never fails to amuse me 
wahaha 
Here I go again with my constant blabbing about Edward Cullen – my love :-*. My roomies are getting sick of my never ending talk about him I just don’t know when this addiction will subside. I think I’m really attracted to anything vampire-ish – Buffy, Interview with the Vampire, Underworld I’m so adoring Edward right now! Waaahh! Can’t stop! But somehow the image of Robert Pattinson keeps popping in my head, although I did not really imagine him as Edward. Although I admit, I like his smile ahihi! Landi!
I’m in the middle of reading Eclipse and I can’t help but to get giggle-ish it was like every mutter from Edward just melts my bones, even though sometimes it seemed hokey ahehe. I think if the words came from the one you love, you just go awed by them. I’m having goose bumps again remembering his sweet mumblings.
“I’ll be back so soon you won’t have time to miss me. Look after my heart — I’ve left it with you.â€
The third book of Stephenie Meyer’s genius is way too exciting! Can’t wait to finish it!
@ann: Kwentuhan ulet! Ahaha!
Belated happy birthday to ras!
Happy birthday lyrs! October metal-mouth cuties! Waaahhh! Amishu :-*
Sigh.
I think my day is getting slow again… waaahhh!
Robert Pattinson picture from http://i32.photobucket.com/albums/d43/Pink-Watermelon/Robert%20Pattinson/8e57dccb.jpg
Posted on October 27th, 2008 at 7:51 am by Ann
Days, it has been one or two days that I’m feeling this feeling (redundant :-P) – unproductive. I just don’t have the mood or the motivation to do my tasks 
sad… what will I do so that I’ll get my enthusiasm back. Does this mean I’m not interested in my work? Or I’m just being lazy?
Sigh.
Hope that I’ll get out of this episode as soon as possible. When I keep thinking about it, it just drives me crazy. Am just glad that I can still have co-curricular activities once in awhile. Like last October17th, I’ve gone swimming with my orgmates/friends in Makiling Highlands. It was fun yumi, glenn, mitch, mark, khajo, martin, mac, dave, mayang, olive and mac’s housmate (sorry I forgot his name) were there. see photos here
our swimming session (Jo and I)Â was revived again! ahehe…Â
Posted on October 14th, 2008 at 6:33 pm by Ann
“It’s twilight,” Edward murmured, looking at the western horizon,
obscured as it was with clouds. His voice was thoughtful, as if his mind
were somewhere far away. I stared at him as he gazed unseeingly out the
windshield.
I was still staring when his eyes suddenly shifted back to mine.
“It’s the safest time of day for us,” he said, answering the unspoken
question in my eyes. “The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way…
the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so
predictable, don’t you think?” He smiled wistfully.
I can’t get over Twilight!
Ahaha
I can’t stop talking about it!
I’m so hooked to Edward… I can’t stop thinking about him ahaha…
I can’t wait for the movie, although I did not picture Edward as Robert Pattinson pero pogi din naman sya
I want to get my hands on the second installment of the Twilight Series, New Moon. I read the preview of it, hope it’ll engross me, the way Twilight did. I was surprised with myself because frankly, I’m not into reading ahaha…
About my day…
I did not expect to have an invite from a friend today. It made me happy. Ahaha! My day did not start the way I expected it to be. Aside from the downpour, I was super late for work. Ahaha! But that simple text made my day
Ahaha!
Come to think of it, I was so pathetic yesterday. I’m so emotional lately, that I admit. Ahaha!
Perhaps it’s one of the signs that I’m getting older
Ahaha
Funny
Ahaha
My teammates prepared a “surprise†pizza merienda for my “belated†birthday. Nyahaha! Thanks guys so sweet of you. Ticia (she don’t me calling her “Miss†Ticia) gave a cookie lollipop with baby bottle design ahehe so cute thanks Tish
Well, it turned out to be an okay day afterall.
Posted on October 13th, 2008 at 11:05 pm by Ann
1, 2, 3, 4…24
“Happy Birthday! Hala! You’re one year closer to your death!â€
                                               -someone told me this a long time ago
It’s the time of the year again… the day I turn 19 + 1 + 1 + 1 + 1 + 1.
Trivia: my age stopped at 19 wahaha!
**sigh
What can I say… not really looking forward to this day… I’m not getting any younger! Wahaha!
There are a lot of things that I want to do and I felt that I haven’t accomplished anything yet. Ahehe…
Oh well, ahehe, but still I’m happy right now and so grateful for the experiences and people that I’ve met so far Sure there are gloomy and distressing moments but it’s a good thing that I managed to shook them off ahehe…
Birthday wish? Hmmmm… mabayaran lang utang ko! ngayon na! poof! Ahaha!
Hope that this year will be better than last year sana yumaman ang mga mahihirap na kagaya ko I’m a little bit sad because my birthday came on a weekday and I won’t be able to spend it with Inay and my siblings but that’s okay and I was right, it is a GLOOMY day for me, lonely even. I’ve never felt so alone, not at my birthday. Birthdays should be somehow lighter than this. Ahehe… I did not have lunch because I don’t want to eat alone – but that was my choice anyway, but nonetheless, I was alone. hay… I remember, last year, anthony and kurt gave me those cute cakes for my birthday, the ones they’ve bought from starbucks, I was so touched that tears started to fill-up my eyes… I miss you guys! @anthoy! Panget ka! pakita ka naman! @kurt! I miss you! Pasalubong ah! Ahehe. Well I was teary-eyed again this year, not because I was touched, but somehow I pity myself… I don’t know if I chose the right word for that. Oh well, I was still blissful – somehow :-)- because I was surprised by myrel and bramble’s piglet gift I was so happy that they remembered.
**sigh** Good times… good times…
Sana may magandang mangyari ngayong araw na ‘to ahehe… I thought…
Birthday Gift to myself: Twilight by Sphenie Meyer – yep! Nabili ko na din xa! Yey! Sooo happy! And I read it in one sitting I’m so dazzled by Edward… I love him ahaha!
Thanks for the greeting everyone wuv you all :-* mwah natuwa naman ako
@tugs: thanks sa libre last Friday! Sana antayin mo akong kumain ng oden ahehe…
Happy birthday to Renee, Migz de Ramas, Cookie, Randy! Hope you had a wonderful day today!
Posted on May 16th, 2008 at 7:46 pm by Ann
“rain rain go away, next month ka pa dapat daratingâ€
I feel sickly this week and felt sicklier when our Puerto Galera trip was cancelled today because of the typhoon. **sob sob**
The summer id not yet over but it’s raining a lot lately. Waaaahhh! Gloomy me
Hope that by next week it’ll be sunny again
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