Dot… dot… dot…
Posted on November 8th, 2009 at 11:05 pm by Ann

I am no artist/poet. One sleepless night, these words just materialize inside my head… a bit cheesy… corny… but I was constantly thinking of you…

10/14/2009
Thinking of you…
Your name echoing inside my head…
When I sleep… You are all I dream about…
Your eyes… your smile…
You are all I can think about…
Your voice… your laugh…
I can’t hide it anymore… you are all I can think about…
It seemed ages… I thought I could never feel this way again…
I want to know you more…
Be with you more…
Laugh with you more…
Talk with you more…
I like you…
It’s difficult…
I should not like you…
I should not talk to you…
I should not laugh with you…
And I can’t be with you…
Reality bit me…
All I can do now… is think of you…
Think of us…
Dream of us…
I like you…
I wonder if you are thinking of me too… __r___

…

 

photo from deviant art

Ann is eating a slice of watermelon
Posted on April 19th, 2009 at 10:30 pm by Ann

Munching watermelon is refreshing… especially this time of year, SUMMER!

I had a great weekend; I got to meet Crislad – Sheryl’s special friend and outing with friends.

Last night, together with high school friends, we had a fun outing at Maria Paz Resort. Videoke, swimming, laughing, picture taking, chatting, drinking and meeting new acquaintances… nice :-P ahehe. Jem+hubby Marvin+baby Ethan, Marta+hubby Bok+baby AJ, Jovz, Rico, G-lyn, Joel, Ronnie, were there :-) ER, Dexter, and Cathy came also but had to leave early. Vhio and Nem also came; they’re Marta’s friends from Lucban. Vhio happen to be my textmate for a month now, ahaha! It was nice to finally meet him in person. We left the resort super late, we had a car problem, and Marvin [Jem’s husband] was left in the resort to wait for the mechanic and we had to commute home :-P

with AJ

with G-lyn

Chase, sorry I was not able to attend your christening ceremony… Welcome to the Christian World!

Ann’s One hell of a weekend
Posted on April 6th, 2009 at 11:39 pm by Ann

April! April Fools… Holy Week… and it is almost midyear! :-D a lot of things to expect, to happen… and it’s SUMMER! Waaah! The weather is super hot, taking a dip in the pool/beach is a must for me :-P relaxation… hanging out … malling :-P This weekend, I got to watch Knowing, Fast and Furious and They Wait. I love watching movies! :-) Hanging out with friends, going to the arcade, is super cool and having a good laugh is super fun too.
Wahaha! It was a nice weekend until I was traumatized :-P It was my fault I guess… I was trying to get into this “dating thing” and I was not aware that I was going out with a married guy! Yes, married guy! It was so uncomfy and was irritating :-P first of, he is not that good looking kinda guy and when I went out with him I totally and specifically told him that it’ll be just a friendly date no something something what so ever. I think I’m at the age wherein I’m looking for a stable and “right” relationship… I’m not a player type, I just want to meet someone that would respect me and love me… I guess that is so difficult to find nowadays… argh! Being friendly is no good either I guess… that was a lesson learned for me, and I’m so terrified when it comes to dating right now… super…
 

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In the brick of mushiness
Posted on February 23rd, 2009 at 6:18 pm by Ann

You visited my dream last night. And it brought a feeling that has been sleeping ages ago. I want to see you, talk to you but I chose not to. If you want to talk, you could have called or texted, but neither, nothing, no effort from your side. Even snail mails nor e-mails. Nothing. I remembered then that we used to write to each other.  Pieces of paper from our notebooks, passing notes, doodling. “I miss you” messages even though you’re just seated beside me. I still have them. Funny. Sweet. I felt then that I was in love with you, even though I don’t want to admit it. We were young then, naïve. Truthfully, I was not sure if what I was feeling then was real and yours towards me as well. I’ve made decisions and actions that brought hurt to you and I am sorry. But then you still understood and told me I was just confused. I felt weak then and guilty. How am I supposed to face you? How come you are willing to accept me despite the things that I have done? I don’t regret the things that had happened, because that experiences had made me who I am right now. And you know; you are one of those that mold me to what I am. And I thank you for that. You were my lover, my best friend, a brother, a father. And I’m glad to have had you in my life.  And as I write this entry, I think of you and it made me smile. I don’t know where our relationship will take us but I’m hoping it will lead towards happiness.

are you feeling any pressure right now anntuts? plus a little something something
Posted on February 14th, 2009 at 4:13 am by Ann

it’s THAT time of the year again… roses, chocolates, balloons, hearts, cupids, love songs will be the “in” thing this month.

February has always been tagged as the love month. It’s like the season when you show you are affectionate to someone by doing something special like giving him/her homemade chocolates or cookies  [or something bought :-P does not matter :-D as long as it’s sweet ;-)] or some blossoms to awe them :-P

The love month… the moment to spread your love :-P

hmmm… I can smell the love… love is in the air… and I don’t care :-P wahaha! Bitter? Not really :-P or maybe a little :-P wahaha! [little lang naman!] Just being honest [?]

a little something something: some things that I like and dislike about this lovey-dovey day that is called VALENTINE’S…

LIKES
1.       Maraming couple [mapa-boy+boy or girl+girl or girl+boy] ang nagkalat/naglipana kung saan-saan; different ages and nakakatuwa silang tingnan… nakakakilig [minsan :-P]
2.      Lahat na ata ng chocolate makikita mo sa grocery or sa kung saan mang bilihan. Tempting bumili… Tsarap! [anntutay <-- sweet tooth]
3.      Daming roses sa daan! Makulay! :-) magandang pagmasdan.
4.      Lahat ng RED na bagay naglipana… wala lang… cool lang :-P
5.      May mga kung anu-anong promo sa mga restaurants kapag panahon ng Valentines.

DISLIKES
1.       Wala akong jowa kaya wala akong ka-chorva. Kakainggit lang ang mga couple na naglipana. Kairita! Sorry, bitter-bitter-an ang lola mo :-P
2.       Napapagastos ako sa chocolates, dagdag pa sa timbang! Paano na ang diet?! Sira na naman! [damn!]
3.       Madami ngang roses, pathetic naman kung bibili ako para sa sarili ko; wahaha! Wawa naman walang bulaklak :-P
4.       Wala lang… eh ano kung madaming red; pink or green ang fave kong color :-P wahaha!
5.       Puno lagi ang mga resto/kainan kase madaming nagdadate! Wala akong mapwestuhan!

Wahaha! Pangulit lang :-P I can’t think of anything more to add to my list :-P i’m not saying that I hate this season and I’m not so into it either :-P it’s nice that all these stuff are happening during a certain time of the year but isn’t  it more wonderful that all these love themed thingys are observed throughout the year :-D I’m not saying this because I haven’t met my Valentine… yet :-P but when I do, I’ll have Valentines with him every day :-D yikee! Baduy ni anntuts! Ahehe!

To all the single ladies out there, here’s a question for us, “Are feeling any pressure right now?” :-P APIR!

Happy Valentine’s Day to all! :-D

@inay: I guess you’ll be my Valentine for today :-P again… love you :-*

my donut puso

My Pre-valentine:
Down pour of chocolates! Wahaha! Super happy! Thanks to all the ORA boys [Gino, Barry, Ralph and Than (and a half)], Tami and to the Events Committee of our project :-D

We had a Valentine event during lunch time at our project area and it was hilarious!

anntuts and ralph playing funny bone

Kate was my pre-valentine date :-P I was suppose to have a facial [my valentine gift for myself] but then I was not able to make the cut-off hour of the clinic… super sad… my mood changed when we had bigoli for dinner and mocha ice blended drink from CBTL :-P we also watched a movie – when I met you. And to be honest, I did not enjoy movie :-P though the sites from Coron, Palawan was super nice, can’t wait for March4*!

“i am nothing special; of this i am sure. i am a common man with common thoughts, and i’ve led a common life. there are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but i’ve loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough…” -  noah (the notebook)
 

WWWWWAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH! Gusto kong magFeb Fair! :-(

*Coron, Palawan trip :-D

sickly anntuts
Posted on January 22nd, 2009 at 3:17 pm by Ann

Yeps, I have cold and slight fever… again. I’ve been feeling heavy and sickly these past few days…
I need vitamins! Wahehe!

I have to get well or else i may end up jobless… the recession issue very much impacted our company and am, in a way, very troubled about it. *sigh* but still thankful …

I still managed to go to the office last wednesday afternoon, though very very late, but I think it got the worst out of me since I went home from office super late, like 1 am this morning… hay… a lot of work must be done and I’m here working from home/apartment… oh well I think it can’t be helped… I need to consult a professional; I’m always like this… feeling weak and fuzzy… *sigh* I’m feeling feeble every second lately… weird… I used to be active and stuff like that. *sigh*

Aside from this physical weakness, I’m having dilemma in the heart department as well. I think it accounted in my sluggish feeling lately… just a thought. Aw I’m so dim-witted. I don’t know what to do, what decision to make, I’m so not gifted when it comes to this department. I’m so not feeling well and happy about what is going on in my personal life. Wahaha! I’m so utterly pathetic really… oh well… that’s me

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Kung hindi man maging kame… sya pa din ang first love ko…
Posted on January 15th, 2009 at 7:04 pm by Ann

“Kung hindi man maging kame… sya pa din ang first love ko…”


Ahaha! Kaloka!

my happily never after
Posted on January 11th, 2009 at 8:29 pm by Ann

mode: darma/emote-emote/mellow

i’ve been listening to this song the whole day! *sigh* can’t decipher what i’m feeling right now…
but i know i’m not okay…

see here

hay… i’m so not lucky when it comes to relationships… romance… i hope my luck will change… i wish to be loved… i wish to be happy… i don’t want to say goodbye… you know i can’t… i’ll just hold on, on what we have right now and see where we’ll go… for now i am sure… i love you so dearly and i’m so sorry i let you go…

love, by far is the hardest and most complicated feeling… but the most wonderful… I don’t know how long I can take it… if I need to be miserable, I’ll accept it… as long as that’ll make you happy… they say, “if you love someone, let him/her go…”, but I can’t… I’ll hold on to you as long as I can and as long as you want me to… if being miserable is the only way that we can stay connected… I’ll stay happily-miserable for you… I love you… I love you dearly…

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Swim for a cause
Posted on June 11th, 2008 at 4:00 pm by Ann

Joanna [friend/orgmate] and I decided to go swimming TTh every week :-D

reason: health :-P and for toned, sexy[?] physique ;) – ano daw? :-P

wahaha! Wala lang… my dream is to one day fit into a two piece bathing suit and not feeling flabby about it. Ahaha! Babaw! I tried no rice diet, gym, diet pills and now I’m into swimming :-P ahehe! Saw this cute, hunky, in red-trunks [yes, it was bloody read] guy yesterday! Wahaha! Ganda ng katawan! Umiral na naman ang kalandian! Ahehe, pero tamang landi lang :-P ahehe, I was not able to talk to him though [tsope], ahaha; but it motivated me to swim more :-P even though I’m out of air :-P can’t wait for our next swim day ;) wish I could see him again :-P **dreamy**

made of honor

after the struggling laps; together with my roomies, we watched Made of Honor in Rockwell. I felt like I was watching My Bestfriend’s Wedding; although Julia Roberts is played by Patrick Dempsey. Ahaha. Atleast they had a happy ending ;)

was invited by Maxine [friend/met at anawangin]yesterday to attend the AMCI Orientation today 6:30pm. Hope I’ll have a great time :) ahehe ;)

announcement:
hello fellow BSCS batch ’01! June 13, Friday; Kita-kita/gimik sa Gerry’s Glorietta 2 8pm onwards :-D hindi ko pa alam kung sinu-sino ang tunay na kasama pero you can ask martin :-D sila ni renee nag-oorganize neto ;)

**made of honor picture from http://www.iwatchstuff.com/2007/11/14/made-of-honor-poster.jpg

anntutay’s day :-D
Posted on October 13th, 2007 at 1:39 am by Ann

nyahaha!!!

MALIGAYANG KAARAWAN!

Happie beerdie anntutay! :-D

mini cakes

salamat sa cute na cute na mga cakes anthony and kurt! nagulat+touched akong sobra :-*

haffie beerdie din kina renee, randy, cookie, geno, edward (bloc h1 leader :-P), migz de ramas, at sa marami pang ka-berdie ko :-D

latest addiction: wu chun

**hay hay.. hope to update my page soooonnneer…. penge laptop! :-D

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